John
My name is John. I was the youngest of Jesus' disciples. I along with my brother James Jesus called us "The Sons of Thunder!" That's because we were loud, and maybe a little bit obnoxious- and sometimes even arrogant. There wasn't anything we thought we couldn't do. It really made the other disciples mad when our mama asked Jesus if we could sit on the right and on the left of Him when He came into His Kingdom. But you see, for the first time in my life I saw a man I really looked up to and respected, a man who could do anything, one who said "nothing shall be impossible for you!" I wanted what He had, and that's why I stayed as close to Jesus as I possibly could.
Then came that fateful night when Jesus gathered us for the last time. None of us knew it, though. He started talking about us having greater power than He had and doing greater things than He did and I couldn't understand what He was talking about when He said He was going away! I felt ashamed of myself that night after the Passover, when Jesus asked us to watch and pray. What did I do? I fell asleep when I should have been watching. I woke from my slumber again as the Jews came and they took Him. I was so scared I didn't know what to do. I followed along as close as I dared to get while they did all kinds of terrible things to Him. They beat Jesus with a cat of nine tails and struck Him so many times I thought my heart would break. Then they led Him up to Golgotha where they stripped Him and nailed Him to that terrible cross. It made me want to vomit, the things that they did to Him. But Jesus had been there for me, so many times! I knew I could not leave Him, especially now when He needed me.
Jesus looked down at me as He hung there on that Cross. He looked first at His mother who stood there and said, "Woman, behold your son." And then He looked at me again and said, "Son, behold your mother." For some reason Jesus entrusted His own mother into my care. I felt so unworthy- after all, I had run out on Jesus when He needed me the most. How could I look after His mother when I could not even look after myself?
I was too horrified to look as I saw Jesus breathe for the last time. If that day was bad, the next few nights were worse as I shook in fear for my life, wondering if the next knock at the door would be the soldiers coming to carry me away and crucify me just as they had done to Jesus. I stayed with Peter until when that knock at the door came. I decided, I would be brave, remembering how brave Jesus was when He went to the Cross. However, the knock at the door revealed only Mary Magdalene, our friend and follower of Jesus. She cried, "He is not here, He is risen just as He said!" Peter and I just looked at each other, dismissive of Mary's claims until suddenly Peter bolted up and ran out the door. It took me a minute to figure out where Peter was running until it occurred to me that Peter must be running to the tomb where Jesus lay.
As I said, I was the youngest. That also meant I was the fastest and ran just as hard as I could and flew by Simon Peter like a flash. I got to the tomb first. The stone was rolled from the entrance, just as Mary said. But I feared to go in. Simon Peter caught up with me as I stood there doubled over, panting hard to get my breath. Simon Peter went on in. The grave clothes were there, but no Jesus! That was when I realized that Jesus had risen. I knew it had to be the way He said it would be. I saw and believed!